| Monday, June 27th, 2005 |
| 2:19 pm |
oh by the way..
it's a bouncing baby boy named Tyler Kane!! Visit my myspace for somepictures... I can't seem to remember how to post pictures on this thing.. it's been YEARS!! Much love and I will update eventually! Current Mood:  accomplishedCurrent Music: the cure mint car |
| Friday, December 31st, 2004 |
| 10:30 pm |
another year on the streets
heres to the last year of being childless for new years eve! no alcohol but at least we don't have to pay someone so we can go out... I think we might be going down to the strip b/c brian and ang have a suite over looking the strip.. I'm gonna get wasted on my sparkling grape juice . Rock me amadaus. Rock me. happy bloody new year!!! Current Mood:  dirtyCurrent Music: el scorcho - weezer |
| Monday, November 29th, 2004 |
| 8:42 pm |
congratulations on your...
SON!!! It's a bouncing baby boy.. Scary...I'm a mom.. it's all so much more real now that we know it's a boy... I tried to call everyone before I posted this... some it is too late to call since you are on the east coast so I'm sorry but I will try to call tomorrow! Much love all! Current Mood:  enthralledCurrent Music: belle and sebastion - we rule the school! |
| Sunday, November 14th, 2004 |
| 4:37 pm |
I'm out like a fat softball player I'm off like a prom dress I'm out of here like a newborn goodbye Justin |
| Thursday, November 11th, 2004 |
| 8:40 pm |
all bent out of shape
so my boobies have gotten to the point of no return. they are heavy as hell. I don't know why I ever wished for bigger boobs in high school! My back is in constant pain and I am not allowed to take any pain relievers for it. so I am walking around like the "hunchbabe" of Notre dame b/c my tits are almost a d cup and my back is soo stooped I look like a 110 year old grandma... finding out what I am having next week. going to phoenix this weekend going to try to see my ol' Denver buddy vince. Saturday is justin and my 2 year anniversary. and we get to spend it with other people. it's gonna be sexy. Not looking forward to seeing justins best friends wife. she is two weeks further along then I am. I didn't get along with her not pregnant and now we both are pregnant. I hope I can bite my tongue or else I will probably leave Justin down there and drive back up here myself. catch you on the flip side Current Mood:  lazyCurrent Music: something really goddamn cool |
| Sunday, October 31st, 2004 |
| 1:35 pm |
stay if you want to
I'm here and I'm queer. Okay maybe not in the standard terms. Justin and I have got our own place now. It's really weird to be living with your boyfriend. I mean, we lived together before but we had roommates. This is our own place. We get to run around naked. We get to have sex everywhere in this place without people walking in! It's great but now I feel all old. In a few months we will have a family. I see all my other friends and I know we are at different points in our lives. Which doesn't bother me. What bothers me is that they have made things change. I am not talking about everyone. But Justin and I no longer get invited places where our single friends are going. I mean we do but it's different. And It's not just here. In KY too. I was alone. My best friend from middle school has passed judgment on me and has chosen to ignore me. We were actually going to name the baby after her if it was a girl. I think its fucked up that she has let her religion get in the way of our friendship - especially since I am with the guy who is the father and we are about to get married - none of that matters I suppose. Why else will she not return my emails, calls or ims? Friendship is a fragile thing that takes only one person to throw away. Thank you Jess and Koop for continuing to be my friend during this whole thing and not let your lives become more important than our friendship. Thanks for being excited about the baby almost as much as I am. I am done. Current Mood: restlessCurrent Music: the cure |
| Friday, October 15th, 2004 |
| 4:03 am |
And they're off....
I am about to disconnect my computer to leave for Las Vegas.. We are stopping in Iowa to see Justins Grandparents first, then off to Denver to see Angie and Joe and the kids..and then to sunny Las Vegas... Had a doctors appointment today... The baby is HUGE!!! 3 inches long - holy god damn! it has a little face and when we were doing the ultrasound s/he was waving at us.. I ruined it because I started giggling which made her/him bounce up and down - it liked it - Okay - I miss and love you all catch you on the flipside Current Mood:  gigglyCurrent Music: a mixtape ben blackwell gave me in 2002 |
| Monday, October 11th, 2004 |
| 5:03 am |
spice and all that's nice
I fall in love too easily.. just like every other girl. every relationship I have had has been "OH MY GOD THE WORLD IS OVER WITHOUT THIS PERSON!!!" when is it for real? now that there is a baby? bonkers. Current Mood:  aggravatedCurrent Music: i hate my generation - sloan |
| Saturday, October 9th, 2004 |
| 8:36 pm |
so sorry .. it's over...
Life is so awesome - the mere idea of being able to grow another human inside of me is just beyond me. Hi. my name is Chrissy _____. I can't keep a cactus alive but I sure can grow 'dem' babies! Is it possible for two equally hot parents to have a child that has a face only a mother could love? Has anyone met such a person? No need to mention names. I know that two ugly parents can have a really hot kid but what about vice versa? I have dreams about my child being hideous. At least the dreams about the child being deformed haven't started yet. According to my books, those will come later. I am driving across country on this coming up Friday with Justin. VIVA LAS VEGAS! I hate that place with such a passion it makes my blood boil. The people there disgust me and I would want to kill myself if my child turned out anything like them. That is why we are moving within 5 years. I am very adamant about it. My parents might be moving to Virginia in a year - I told my mom to watch for Lyndsey's drunk ass. They might get into a drinking competition and then Lyndsey will be all sad because my mom is Queen Lush. Gotta love it. Speaking of, I just downloaded Man Overboard by Blink 182 - reminds me of Lyndsey - New Years Eve 2001 and all the months before and after that - "I remember shots without a chaser" I am supposed to be packing and Justin will yell but I will manage to make it all his fault that I am a procrastinator. Gotta love pregnancy. Gotta love pickles. Gotta love Justin. Current Mood:  thirstyCurrent Music: blink, smiths, and alittle 'I don't love anyone" from B&S |
| Wednesday, September 29th, 2004 |
| 10:59 pm |
And then there was light..
Once again, I put off updating until I have the most drastic life changes you could possible think of. Remember when life was simple? Remember when this journal was important? Remember when? *sigh* As for now, Justin and I are about to become parents. Can you believe it? Does anyone remember any of my previous entries? Say back in April 2001? I can't believe this little girl is being forced to grow up... But, I am now into my 8th week of pregnancy and feeling every bit of it, let me tell you. There is definitely no glamour in this as I once thought when I was younger. Please don't get me wrong. I am VERY excited about this. I know Justin and I will make awesome parents b/c even though we bicker, he has proven to me that he will stick by me in the end.. no matter what I have to do to get him back.. naw - I don't think he will leave me again. I would probably kill him with the way my emotions have been. So, we are getting married here pretty soon. At least I waited till after I turned 21 to have a kid and get married right? One thing I did not account for is the incrediable loneliness. I feel more hostile because of it. I suppose it will end when I go to Las Vegas in November. There is no one else I would have wanted to have a unplanned pregnancy with then Justin. What sucks is that now Justin knows about my journal so I will never be able to get credit for actually feeling the way I do.. from now on it will be " oh you just wrote that for me.." All right, I suppose I will update again after the baby's born with my record.. hopefully, with all the time I will have off I will update a little more often... maybe with pictures of my big belly... and of course pictures of our new house - maybe some more nudes to post on the internet! catch ya on the flip side Justin, I like your scary voice! It makes me wet my pants. Current Mood:  cheerfulCurrent Music: too high for the supermarket! |
| Monday, June 28th, 2004 |
| 1:47 am |
don't you want to waste your life with us?
Well, well, well.. Fancy paying attention to this silly thing again... So much has happened since my last update.. That night I went out with those guys and ended up getting jumped because I can't keep my mouth shut.. jumped by 5 Mexican GUYS from Illinois... Fucking losers.. The guys I was with stood up for me.. they got the shit beat out of them .. it was perhaps the most chivalrous thing anyone has ever done for me... yeah, I cried.. I got back with Justin.. found out he slept with a girl I worked with - not a problem.. bitch her out and threaten to beat her ass right? WRONG She was my supervisors daughter... oh and my roommate Anne, she kept inviting this girl over to our place.. let me be nice to her and didn't bother to tell me that her fat friend slept with Justin... And I mean FAT... UGH... we went to a monster truck rally ( GRAVEDIGGER!!! yeah.. I turned a little white trash...) .. Justin and I were a little drunk and we got home and started going at it...we stopped having sex b/c I hurt and then went to sleep.. woke up at 8 in the am and had to go to the emergency room b/c the pain didn't go away..turns out I had a cyst on my ovary and Justin ruptured it during sex.. they told me if I would have waited a few more hours to come there I would have bled to death ..had to undergo surgery.. bad part being I was supposed to leave for phoenix for a business trip on Monday and this was Sunday.. they required I stay for one night and the next day I could go.. well called work and they found someone else to go.. I still hurt a little after the surgery so I stayed an extra day.. which worked out awesome b/c my nurse woke me up at 6 am and told me I was still bleeding inside.. told me I most likely would have to have one of my ovaries removed... everything turned out fine.. have all of my girl parts but I am officially broken... I most likely won't be able to have kids b/c I get these cysts so much.. may have to have medical menopause.. oh by the way.. in case any of you forgot I am just turning 21 this year... well all that's well and fine but on April fools day a few days after I got out of the hospital.. my other gyno called and told me I have pre cancer cells on my cervix and I have to wait till July to find out if it will turn into cancer...BULLSHIT .. this shit sucks.. so I decided to go to Kentucky so I can enroll in school again and keep my health insurance b/c obviously I am needing some major attention... just before I quit.. I was fired from my job b/c I was never able to be there b/c of my health.. some bullshit.. I think I can probably sue them.. but I was happy to leave b/c of problems with my roommate who is a bitch and with that girl who slept with my boyfriend while parading to be my friend.. anyway, I moved out of my apartment when I found out that Anne was telling lies to Justin about me trying to break us up.. we moved past the "who we slept with while we were broken up" drama because I was almost as bad...So I fucking bounced on the bills since Anne had this guy living with us the whole time we lived there for free.. and we talked about it but she made no effort to fix the problem.. so I said fuck you.. he is a teamster.. he brings in a grand a week.. he can pay.. peace out... Justin and I are still together.. I am now living in Kentucky .. this fourth of July weekend Justin bought me a plane ticket to come see him in Vegas.. and I think we are better than ever.. Sorry that this is a bitch and whine post.. I wanted to give a thorough update to everyone since eI have been neglecting everyone bc of my crazy life lately... much love to all and ya'll come back now , ya hear? Current Mood:  complacentCurrent Music: none- adult swim in background |
| Sunday, February 15th, 2004 |
| 11:28 pm |
backstabbers and fingerjabbers
I'm in denver right now visiting angie and joe justin and i broke up seeing this guy named jesse going out tonight with these two guys karl and bret maybe i can get a threesome going flying to san fran on tuesday for a week life is actually pretty good didn't think i would be alright without justin but guess who made it? :) got my nudes from kristin tonight i was a hottie back in the day can't wait to plaster them all over the internet! :) okay i am going to go hang out with my sister and bro love all of ya |
| Monday, November 17th, 2003 |
| 9:29 pm |
don't forget to let the light rot you inside out
update i bought a car, hyundai accent 2002.. job going well getting paid mad money justin and i celebrated one year together last thursday have my own apartment going to arizona on the 18th of dec going to louisville on the 23 of dec and lost 10 pounds Life is starting to look up again talk to ya'll later |
| Friday, October 3rd, 2003 |
| 8:07 pm |
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| Sunday, September 21st, 2003 |
| 11:49 pm |
Scorpio: (Oct. 24—Nov. 21) You'll always have someone standing at your side to love you, no matter how many times you try to escape by skipping town in the middle of the night. how perfect is that? who will ever forget my notorious trip to jesse's house at 6 in the morning to leave for florida! |
| 10:20 pm |
Let me tell you about a CRAZY night!
So Justin left for Ohio on friday not portland. Whateva. I miss him to death. It sucks sleeping alone now. I got so used to him being there. Anyway, last night was the White Stripes show. Ben called me Friday while I was at work and was like "hey, do you want me to put you on the list?" I was like "HI! IS THAT EVEN A QUESTION?" umm do I want to get in for free and hang out with cool people or pay 45 dollars per ticket. and actually it was sold out by the time I started looking. So everything worked out great. soledad brothers opened for them. amazing. Saw ben. he was looking sharp. Definitely got cuter over the years. I hope he can say the same for me. well since justin took my fake id with him to ohio I figured I was shit out of luck if I wanted to drink. but then I realized that I still have my wristband from the plea for peace tour last year. I knew there was a reason that I kept it in my purse. so JR wrapped it back around my wrist and put a postage stamp on it in order to stick. it was sooo high class. I got a little drunk and had to pee every 5 minutes. well don't you know that the second time I went to the bathroom, someone taps me on the shoulder. i saw that it was a security guy. I was like oh fuck. I am totally busted with a fake wristband. I turn around with a sweet smile on my face when I looked at the guy and realized it was Derek! of all people to run into last night, my ex fiance had to be the one. well I also ran into doug who introduced me to Justin so I guess it was just a weird night of coincidences. the white stripes played a lot of new stuff which I thought sucked but overall the concert was a success. afterwards JR and I went to the Aftershow party thing. Met a friend of bens who just moved to Vegas. Hopefully she and I will party it out sometime soon. it was cool to be like "I'm a guest of the white stripes" made me blush and shit. I am just tooo fucking cool. that's all there is too it. anyway, I must go to bed even though it will be a long cold night just as the past 2 have been. goodnight all. much love the white stripes |
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| Sunday, September 14th, 2003 |
| 12:43 pm |
I just can't wait for my 10 year reunion...
Wow. Things have turned completely awesome. Still having some troubles with Justin but he convinced me to stay. I got my boss fired. And I got a 100 dollar reward for it. I got a new job at The Freeman Company. Let me just tell you how awesome this job is! First of all I start at $12 an hour, I am guaranteed 40 hours a week but most likely will work more. I am the Exhibitor Service Rep at trade shows. They pay me to travel to different shows all around the nation. This is going to be beyond cool. I get full benefits. Fucking rock me! Check out the website www.totalshow.com ! what else? Found an awesome apartment with Anne. Just beautiful. I can not wait to move in. The only problem is that is close to where I used to live when my parents were here and I have kinda gotten used to being on this side of town and being able to see Justin within 10 minutes. now it goes back up to 1/2 hour. going to see the white stripes this weekend. Ben Blackwell is going to be there. Shall be fun to see him again. Justin is going to Portland with his dad for a business conference and will be gone from friday till the following wednesday. so JR is going to the concert with me. Justin will be missed. *SIGH* anyway, justin and I are off to drop off rob's dirt bike. then to the mall so I can find some cheap american eagle tank tops and then to have lunch with his mamasan. oh and if any one has a car they want to sell me.. call me. Current Mood: chipperCurrent Music: John Mayer |
| Sunday, August 17th, 2003 |
| 8:03 pm |
Things to do in Denver when you are dead...
So I made up my mind. This is the hardest decision I have ever had to make in my life. But Angie is right and I am going to do it. Current Mood: rejectedCurrent Music: AK3 - Stupid Kid |
| Saturday, August 9th, 2003 |
| 4:06 pm |
welcome this is the farmhouse
I start my new job tonight.. well in an hour anyway.. if Justin gets home from work on time to take me. the restuarants grand opening to the public is tonight.. it looks pretty good in there and the food is awesome.. SO much more to say but not enough time. Perhaps I will update more when I find the time. much love Current Mood: groggyCurrent Music: Farmhouse- Phish |
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